Dream Job

First I want to apologize for the LONG overdue blog entry! I don’t know how all this happened and where the time went… but life has been insane these past couple weeks! Second… are you ready for this ?!? (You might actually want to sit down… oh wait you probably are… haha) Well the big news is that I landed the JOB!!! You are looking at the new president for a multimedia company here in Circle City! Crazy, huh?!?! I couldn’t believe it myself… honestly I can’t take any of the credit for it. Without a doubt it is all God and He has worked out everything! I had to keep it on the down-low for a little because we were trying to figure out the contract, but after 5 interviews and two weeks of trying to figure stuff out God has given me what looks like to be my dream job! I’m in awe of how awesome God is and amazed with what can happen when you put your trust Him. I’m really excited to see how God uses me with this new opportunity.

As far as relationships go… nothing really happening on that home front. I was a little disappointed but I’m building some good friendships! Which truthfully, I feel like it is for the best with how busy I am with my job. Last night I went down to the lake house with Dan, Mr. Mansion and a huge group of people! It was awesome… we had a really fun time, even though it was only for the night. I have a feeling we will be at the Lake house a lot more this summer. And tonight I’m going to a hockey game with another group of friends. Can’t wait!!!

It has been an exciting past couple of weeks and I’m really happy how everything is turning out so far. I’m beyond blessed and am thankful for all your prayers and support during this time… it has meant so much to me.

“Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!” -Isaiah 30:18

Relationship Vibes

Relationship vibes… have you every felt them? Have you ever been confused by them? For years guys have been stating girls were the only ones who gave off confusing vibes but the more and more I interact with different guys I’ve realized this is not true by any means. Guys give off just as many confusing relationship vibes as girls do. I actually can’t believe guys can say that they are easy to understand. Because in reality I can not for the life of me figure out what you men want?!?! One minute you are calling me dear, holding my hand, saying I’m amazing… than the next minute you make up excuses, act like you never liked me and you think it is okay to pick up where you left me hanging. Just like the movie “He is just not that into you”…seriously with guys playing these games; how are woman suppose to actually find someone that would like to have a “real relationship”. I’m not trying to be disrespectful towards guys that read this but guys can be such jerks sometimes.

With Valentine’s Day around the corner, even though I’m not in a “relationship”, I can honestly say I’m happy about it. Of course I would love to have someone for Vday but for once I don’t have to worry about buying anyone a card, I don’t have to make googly eyes with anyone across a table and I don’t have to spend countless hours getting ready for the big date. Granted I’m not closing myself off from the world but I don’t have time to play games with guys either. If I’m interested in you, you will know plain and simple. If I feel you are not into me… I move on. There is no reason to whine and gravel over a guy that won’t give you the time of day. If you are experiencing such a guy in your life he is not worth your time, don’t mess with him. I promise you can do better! Be content being just you… it is much more rewarding to do so.

Sorry for that little spat… I really don’t know what that was about. But I thought I would give you an update what is happening with the random guys in my life right now…

I found out Mr. Mansion has been sick the past couple days and I felt really bad for him. So tonight I thought I would bring him a get well bag. Filled with soup, tea, a sandwich from Jimmy John’s, crackers and juice. However, before I brought it down to him I was getting weird vibes through text. It was like he wanted me to come but didn’t. Grr… confusing! Maybe I should stop caring so much but my intentions were good. So I ended up bringing over the get well stuff to his house, which in turn he ended up being very thankful for.  I wonder if it was because he was sick.. but I’m a little confused about the vibes he was giving me this pass weekend compared to the new ones I got from him tonight. They were really different and see this is what I’m talking about. What am I suppose to do with that? I guess we will see how Thursday goes if he ends up coming.

Now on the other hand Mr. Seattle finally got skype working on his new computer. This was unexpected but tonight we talked on skype for over an hour! What, where did that come from ?!?! See I think what catches me off guard the most is that it was just like the first time we talked on skype down in Florida. Sigh, I really like Mr. Seattle… but I don’t want to play games. I know he has been nothing but respectful and just trying to maintain being a friend in my life right now; however it just makes things complicated. Because I can’t see him as “just” a friend. It will be interesting to see if we continue to skype more and if anything comes from that. Deep down if I’m being honest with myself, I still want something to.

Well that is all I have for now… I better get some sleep but I will write soon and let you know how tomorrow goes.

Before Dawn

This morning I was up bright and early to take my friend Loretta to the airport. I don’t know what it is about airports, but I love going to them! I think it is because I have a serious passion for traveling and would be on a plane all the time if I had the money to do it. To most people airport traveling is a haggle but for me I feel like every time I go there I’m off on an new adventure. I would spend countless hours on a plane or in an airport if it meant I was able to experience something new. Every since I was young my parents have encouraged me to explore new cultures and countries. I could never repay them for all the memories they gave me but I’m beyond thankful for them. If you ever get the chance to travel overseas I would do it without a doubt. I promise the experiences you will have will be way beyond what you anticipate. 

Anyway driving back to my apartment, I stopped and got a cup of coffee and something to eat. I kind of like driving early in the morning when there is no traffic to deal with. Coming home I thought I might go back to bed but I have been wide awake since 4 am. So now I’m wondering if I should even try to go back to sleep. Maybe I should go to the gym since I’m already up? Hum… I could always take a nap later plus I will get an earlier start to my morning if I stay up! Okay, I guess I’m going to go get ready…off to the gym I go!  

Out of My Comfort Zone

Have you ever done something and you stop and think, “Man… that was so uncharacteristic of me!” I find myself saying this a lot more lately. I feel like God has taken hold of my heart and stretched in ways I never knew it could stretch. Teaching me to grow in things I never thought in a million years I would ever want to do. Giving you one example, can you believe at one point of time I hated to write? I was one of “those people” who couldn’t stand the thought of sitting down to write a paper. However I have found I’m writing pages upon pages and enjoying every minute of it. Who would have ever thought?

Needless to say, God has challenged me to do things way out of my comfort zone. It comes back to that good old saying, “You can talk the talk, but can you walk the walk?” I no longer just talk about wanting to do something, I’m finally doing them. Five years ago if you told me I would be single, living on my own in Circle City, writing in a blog, starting a bible study and enjoy running marathons. I would have flat out told you that you’re nuts !?! I was foolish back then, I had my life all planned out. I thought I knew who I was going to marry, where I wanted to live and exactly what I was supposed to do with my life. Goes to show God had much bigger plans then I had for myself. Turning my little “thought to be perfect” world upside down.

Honestly, I didn’t really contemplate that when I asked God a few years back to take me out of my comfort zone, that He would really take me this far. And let me tell you the journey has been a rough one, it hasn’t been easy. But through it all He has given me the greatest gift I could of asked for, a heart for Him and His will. I don’t know where God will lead me on this journey but I’m thankful He has given me this passion for it.

“You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.” – Psalm 16:11

“ You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn.” -2 Samuel 22:37

“I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free.” – Psalm 119:32

We are Blessed

After a couple hours of waiting my mom just called and said they just finished up with my grandfather’s heart surgery. The doctors ran a test on the growth that they removed and found out it was a benign tumor (which is non-cancerous).The tumor was located on the side of my grandfather’s heart and pieces of it were slowly breaking off. The doctors explained to my mom when a piece of the tumor breaks off, it causes you to have a stroke. Most likely the reason why he had his first stroke a few months ago. The great news is that they got it all removed just as another piece was about to break off! My mom said everyone should be able to see him in just a half an hour. So I just wanted to give everyone the update and thank you for your prayers. We are very blessed they caught the tumor when they did.

Giving Thanks

Thanksgiving, is that time of year for loads of food, warm winter sweaters and being around those you love. Coming to a table of family and friends in remembrance for all that we have to be thankful for. For myself this year has been incredibly hard but I couldn’t be more thankful for the friends and family God has blessed me with. It has been through their encouragement, friendship and love that I have been able to push through all the struggles that have crossed my path. Without them and my Father’s undying love for me I would have not gotten through all of it. Here is a short re-cap of what I’m thankful for: My company went through three layoffs, I’m thankful I still have a job. After three months I found out my boyfriend cheated on me with his ex, I’m thankful I found out before I got too far into it. I ran my second marathon this year, I’m thankful I finished well. Dating again has been a huge rollercoaster ride, I’m thankful I’m not in any bad relationships and I am learning to be content being single. I almost made a huge mistake by moving to B-Ripple, I’m thankful God took me out of that situation. When my wallet and all my credit cards got stolen, I’m thankful nothing bad happened and even though it was a pain I got everything taken care of. I moved into my first one bedroom apartment, I’m thankful God provided the funds to do that. And when I thought all was lost and it didn’t seem like there was anywhere to turn, I’m thankful God was right there beside me. Needless to say I have much to be thankful for. Even though my struggles may seem minuscule compared to the rest of the world, they really challenged me this year to grow stronger and deeper in my faith than ever before. I hope each and every one of you has a wonderful thanksgiving and is blessed by the ones you love. Lastly, I will leave you with a verse that I hold dear to my heart. It will be my prayer for you this Thanksgiving.

“I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart; for whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share in God’s grace with me. God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus. And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.” – Philippians 1:3-11