Until Then…

Sometimes… there are those moments when you hear something and it just hits you. I had one of those moments when I was watching television tonight. I never thought of relationships this way but I couldn’t agree more. So many of my friends are settling down, others are without a doubt settling and then I realize I’m neither. I’m single, independent, strong and content with where my life is right now. I don’t waste my time with meaningless dates and flying solo on a Sunday night snuggled on the sofa, is the least of my worries. I know Mr. Right may not come today, or tomorrow but until then… I will wait patiently. It will be worth waiting on something like butterflies then to rush into things and live without them.

“Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies.” – Sarah Jessica Parker

One day…

This past Thursday, I flew down to Florida to be home with the family for Christmas. If you were wondering why I’ve been a little MIA the past couple days, that is the reason. It has been great being back home, I’ve missed everyone so much! But it has also been really hard coming back this year. This town… has so much history for me with my first boyfriend. Just driving around, memories of him start to surface. In one way these memories are nothing more then just that, memories. It is sad I’ve tried to suppress them, it is like trying to let a piece of my childhood go. However in the end I know how my life would have ended up if I had married him. I would have made due, but I would have been unhappy. Knowing that fact alone has made it easier over time to let my ex fade away.

I very hopeful and I know “one day” I will have that happiness I long for. When there isn’t one waking moment I can’t go without thinking about him, where he makes me laugh so hard I’m about to pee my pants and when I wouldn’t want to love anyone else but him. I know he is out there… I’m just waiting for him to come find me. When he does it will be perfect and he will be everything I had hoped for and more. But until that moment, I’m trying so hard to be patient.

Mr. Seattle and I have been talking quite a bit. I believe we have at least text or called almost every day since we had our second date. I’m really appreciating the friendship we are starting to build and I hope that no matter what we will never lose that. Again, I have no idea where things are headed but I’m not trying to let myself worry about it. If it is going to work out it will and if not… well it just wasn’t meant to be. I just know Mr. Seattle has made me so happy lately, I feel like I’m a kid again. I get excited when he calls, I can’t wait to hear about his day and he makes me laugh so much… I really don’t want it to end.

Contemplating what my life could be like one day I’m left a little more confused then I was before. It is never easy trying to figure these things out so I’m left to letting it just play out. It has been humbling to know that sometimes our lives are to big for us to plan out ourselves and that God has been writing long before our existence. I guess you can’t really appreciate a good book for the story if you read the ending first, right? So right now that is where I’m at… trying to be patient, waiting for the “right guy” to come along and not reading the ending of my story before it happens. One day… it will all work out and it will be everything I’ve hoped for.

Heart to Heart

B and I finally reunite on the phone to have a heart to heart. We laughed, cried and rekindled our fire for God through each other. Who would have known, it seems like we have never been apart from each other. Some friendships just never die and I really appreciate how we have been there for each other so much lately. Her friendship has meant so much to me. B and Char are so cute! They think I should start my own studio so everyone can own a piece of my “out of a movie ad” artwork. Love it ! B’s roommate Jihane got a fish and named it Couture. How long will this one last I wonder. Better make sure not to tap on the glass and overfeed it B. Holls, what has that girl been up to? Has anyone heard about this new boy she has been hanging out with? Give me the DL. So the scoop on finding Mr. Right… looks like I might be interested to see what this JF guy has to offer. JF called me last night and I think we will be meeting up in the future…only time will tell.

Searching for Mr. Right

Day-by-day there seems to be a new guy that comes across my path. In the grocery store, on a plane, in a parking lot, and almost anywhere I go. Most of my girlfriends are in disbelief when I tell them the stories of how I meets these guys. Want the inside scoop? I will start a blog about my single life in the Circle City and the guys I encounter. Hope you enjoy.