Law School Dinner

I thought I would update you on Mr. Pepperdine. Sadly, I missed out on the law school dinner last night. Because the plane tickets for the weekend to LA were like almost $500 dollars. He sent me a text last night that read, “Missed you at the dinner tonight…” (sigh) It is frustrating to me the guys I’m really interested in and could see something going somewhere with… live so stinkin far away! What is the deal with me and long distant relationships?!?! I just don’t get it.

However Mr. Pepperdine did mention he is taking a road trip from LA to New York when he moves there in May. Which he said he might be able to talk his brothers into stopping in Indy on the way out there to see me. I know I shouldn’t but I kind of want to keep my figures crossed.

I feel your Whisper across the Sea

Last night after getting home from the gym I got a phone call from Mr. Pepperdine! It has been a while since we had talked but needless to say we were on the phone for about an hour catching up. It was awesome being able to talk with him again… but I was super jealous about the fact he was on vacation sitting under a palm tree on a beach in Hawaii when I was back in Circle City! I could even hear the waves crashing in the background… how crazy is that! I think Mr. Pepperdine for me will always be one of those guys who I will always have a thing for. Later on that night I got a text from Mr. Pepperdine that said…

“What are you doing next weekend? …want to be my date to my law school dinner?”

Would I ever !?!? I don’t know how in the world this would happen but I would die if it did. I e-mailed him back this morning so we will have to see what he responds with.

Just Friends

Photo: Nicole & I with the group at Nicky Blaine’s for Valentine’s Day

Nicole and I have been hanging out a lot more, which has been awesome. Considering it has been a real blessing to talk to another girl about… well… just girl stuff! Plus having great girlfriends like Nicole have made me forget about not really having anyone special over the V-day holiday. I’m happy to know I’m not alone in the way I feel about guys right now, it has helped a lot to hear your thoughts. I’m thankful for everyone’s encouragement to keep going.

Looking on the past holiday weekend… I’m a little confused on what happened. When Mr. Mansion came to hang out at my apartment earlier on Saturday, it went well. We just sat around, ate lunch and talked. Later on that night, when we were out at Nicky Blaine’s he seemed a little distant but I figured it was because his brother was there in the group. However ever since Saturday I have not heard nor talked with Mr. Mansion. So I’m pretty sure that whatever feeling made him grab my hand is long gone. Oh well it was a nice thought but really short lived.

Things with Mr. Pepperdine and I have been up and down over the past couple months but on Monday we talked on skype for the first time together. It has been neat how much I’ve been using skype to communicate with different people. It is like a whole new world to keeping up with people. We hadn’t seen each other in over 6 months, so mainly we just caught up on what has been going on in our lives. It was awesome to be able to talk with him face to face (kind of). Still, I find it interesting after all this time one smile from him makes my heart melt. I don’t know what it is but I know where I stand and I know what roads not to go down again. Which leaves us to where we are now… just being friends.

As far as Mr. Seattle goes, we talked last night on skype for a little. But right off the bat I could tell he was a little a frustrated with just life in general. So the conversation wasn’t the best, but hopefully whatever he is going through it works itself out. It is a bummer we live so far apart, I think it is one of the biggest reasons things have just kind of crumbed. But I’ve been told if he wants to be with you he will move mountains to do so. I can’t worry about it now, besides I think it might not be the best time to start anything anyway.

These past couple months God has taught me a lot about what He wants for me in a relationship. I’ve learned not to settle for anything less and even though it would be nice to have a relationship to work out right now. I understand it probably isn’t His timing for it… I just have to wait, be patient and content until He shows me otherwise. I’m glad God has given me such a heart for His will and a passion for the friendships He has blessed me with. It is hard sometimes to understand the reasons why God lets things happen the way they do but in the end He will bless us for staying on His path.

“My steps have held to your paths; my feet have not slipped.” -Psalm 17:5

Groundbreaking

What a week this has been!!!! I feel like in the in just the couple days God has placed some amazing job opportunities and people in my life. Granted because I have been so incredibly busy moving forward with my career, I haven’t had a chance to sit down and blog about it. I thought I would just take a few seconds to give an update of how things were going.

The Job Search:
I have two full-time job opportunities that are so much more than I could ever ask for. Ones I did not look for and never dreamed of finding. I know without a doubt that this is God working in my life and wherever He leads me it will be for His glory and not mine. I will be sharing more information about them very soon, but I have to work about the details first. Thank you for being so patient and understanding while I figure this out. It is a really exciting time for me and I’m looking forward to seeing how this turns out.

Dating:
I found out from one of my girlfriends that Mr. Fitness has a baby?!?! And he is trying to move back in with this baby’s mama?!?!? What the heck ?!?! How did he think he could get away with hiding that, seriously. So from that stand point of not being upfront and honest about something that BIG in your life… I’m not about to deal with that. Mr. Fitness is O.U.T. of the picture for good.

Things with Mr. Pepperdine have been going well, we have gone back to just being friends again. He has been a great support through all of the crazy stuff going on in my life right now. I’ve really appreciated his friendship and glad we are communicating again.

After a week or so of being really quite… Mr. Seattle called me two days ago and updated me what was going on in his life. I also found last weekend he was less than a two hour drive away from me and didn’t bother to tell me. My heart sank when I found that out but in reality it wouldn’t of worked out going to see him anyways. Which granted he was here on business but I would of appreciated a call or something saying he was that close. Non the less, I think he is just a little busy at the moment and wrapped up in making his way in the world. I know what he is going through because I’m in the same place right now. So for now I will just sit tight and maybe later something will bloom out of it. But if not at least I know I didn’t invest to much time waiting on him.

In a nut shell things have been off the charts… but I’m really blessed and willing to go where God wants to lead me in my job and relationships. Please keep me in your prayers, for as I’m pretty sure I will be making the one of the biggest decision I have ever made in my life over the next few weeks. This is groundbreaking… and could be the moment that changes my life forever.

Pitter-Pat

Here is the well needed update of what has been going on the past couple days…

The Job Search:
There is an angel sitting on my shoulder… whisking away my fear of the unknown. I have never felt so comforted about things and my faith is continuing to stand strong. With everything going on, I should feel like my world is spinning out of control. The job search is still going… I’ve been on the hunt for a while but opportunities are starting to present themselves and I know it will just be a matter of time before things work out. There is also the possibility of starting a freelance company and maybe joining forces with another designer?!?! Which be really exciting… could this be where God is leading me? Well, I will keep you informed what happens once I hear more.

New MacBook Pro:
I feel bad because I haven’t had the time to write lately. Being unemployed has kept me busy looking for a new job. My living room has become my new office. I’ve been struggling to keep up with everything because my mac hasn’t been running really well and it takes forever to do anything on it. But today, God answered one of my prayers… lately I have been having to turn down freelance opportunities because of my computer was over 6 years old and extremely slow. However, it just goes to show God knows your needs and always provides. My grandparents called me and told me they wanted to buy me a new computer! Now, hold the phone… who does that?!?! I couldn’t believe they wanted to do that for me, lets just say when grandma told me I had tears of joy streaming down my face. It is just what I needed, when I needed it. I just blow away right now of God’s amazing timing of things. I’m truly blessed by everything they have done for me and for God’s amazing provisions.

Dating:
So this past Friday, a married couple I’m friends with tried hooking me up with one of there friends. They ended having me over to there house for dinner and a movie for more or less a double date. Mr. Double Dater was nice and the evening was really fun. We had an amazing meal and then sat around playing apples to apples… after which we all watched a movie together. Great night but can I be honest? It all felt more like we were all great friends hanging out and there wasn’t really any sparks flying at all. So even though it was a great night and fun, I don’t think it will be going anywhere.

Mr. Seattle started texting me again… interesting. Just when I said the book was probably closed, it opens once again. His texts are still far and few between but I was excited to hear from him. I know on my end, I still feel really attracted to him… so we will see. I’m more or less just hoping.

Besides that Mr. Pepperdine an old college crush has been trying to be more involved in my life. He keeps sending me random text, just seeing how I’ve been doing. But I don’t know what he really wants so I haven’t paid much attention to them and that ship has mostly sailed now. After what he pulled back in August I pretty sure it would take a lot for me to feel comfortable putting my heart out again for him. I’m just not ready to go down that road anytime soon.

Lastly, may I shed some light a big issue? Have you ever been taken advantage of or been walked all over by someone you liked? Mr. BRipple is such a guy and is one of those who just doesn’t get it. Over this past summer we kind of liked each other and he seemed like a cool guy to hang out with but ended up being a real jerk. Well a couple days ago he texted me out of the blue and he had the nerve to ask if I wanted to come over and snuggle. Okay for one he hasn’t talked with me in months and second where does he get the gull to think that would be okay to do? Who does he think I am?!?! Needless to say, I wrote him back and told him very nicely that the only reason he should contact me is to be a friend and nothing more right now. I don’t need a meaningless relationship (who only calls once in a while) and I knew that was exactly what he was looking for. The reason I’m mentioning this is because I wanted to remind you guys that we have feelings and your really messing with them when you pull stuff like this. Seriously, if you don’t want to be considered a jerk be mindful in trying to make healthy relationships. Otherwise in the end you will just end up alone, no girl likes a guy who fools around. And ladies you need to stick up for yourself with guys like that. Because if you don’t they will always treat you without respect and continue this little game they are playing. Sticking up for myself has helped me avoid a lot of bad situations. Excuse me for venting but I felt like it needed to be said.

New Friends:
Since I’ve had more time off, I’ve been able to hang out with friends and be able to make some new ones at networking events. It has been really interesting to see those new friendships take off. The kind of friends you feel like you have known forever. Last Friday after the blind double date I met up with some of these new found friends at Moon Dogs. It was awesome to be able to hang out and just have fun being goof-balls with each other. I’m really thankful that God has stuck some amazing people in my life. I can’t believe how much networking changes how many people you know in a matter of days. Seriously I feel like in the past two weeks I’ve met over 50 new people… it is crazy!!!

Well I think it is time for bed, however I can’t tell you how much I have appreciated all your encouraging words and prayers. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, it means the world to me.