Dream Job

First I want to apologize for the LONG overdue blog entry! I don’t know how all this happened and where the time went… but life has been insane these past couple weeks! Second… are you ready for this ?!? (You might actually want to sit down… oh wait you probably are… haha) Well the big news is that I landed the JOB!!! You are looking at the new president for a multimedia company here in Circle City! Crazy, huh?!?! I couldn’t believe it myself… honestly I can’t take any of the credit for it. Without a doubt it is all God and He has worked out everything! I had to keep it on the down-low for a little because we were trying to figure out the contract, but after 5 interviews and two weeks of trying to figure stuff out God has given me what looks like to be my dream job! I’m in awe of how awesome God is and amazed with what can happen when you put your trust Him. I’m really excited to see how God uses me with this new opportunity.

As far as relationships go… nothing really happening on that home front. I was a little disappointed but I’m building some good friendships! Which truthfully, I feel like it is for the best with how busy I am with my job. Last night I went down to the lake house with Dan, Mr. Mansion and a huge group of people! It was awesome… we had a really fun time, even though it was only for the night. I have a feeling we will be at the Lake house a lot more this summer. And tonight I’m going to a hockey game with another group of friends. Can’t wait!!!

It has been an exciting past couple of weeks and I’m really happy how everything is turning out so far. I’m beyond blessed and am thankful for all your prayers and support during this time… it has meant so much to me.

“Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!” -Isaiah 30:18

Just Friends

Photo: Nicole & I with the group at Nicky Blaine’s for Valentine’s Day

Nicole and I have been hanging out a lot more, which has been awesome. Considering it has been a real blessing to talk to another girl about… well… just girl stuff! Plus having great girlfriends like Nicole have made me forget about not really having anyone special over the V-day holiday. I’m happy to know I’m not alone in the way I feel about guys right now, it has helped a lot to hear your thoughts. I’m thankful for everyone’s encouragement to keep going.

Looking on the past holiday weekend… I’m a little confused on what happened. When Mr. Mansion came to hang out at my apartment earlier on Saturday, it went well. We just sat around, ate lunch and talked. Later on that night, when we were out at Nicky Blaine’s he seemed a little distant but I figured it was because his brother was there in the group. However ever since Saturday I have not heard nor talked with Mr. Mansion. So I’m pretty sure that whatever feeling made him grab my hand is long gone. Oh well it was a nice thought but really short lived.

Things with Mr. Pepperdine and I have been up and down over the past couple months but on Monday we talked on skype for the first time together. It has been neat how much I’ve been using skype to communicate with different people. It is like a whole new world to keeping up with people. We hadn’t seen each other in over 6 months, so mainly we just caught up on what has been going on in our lives. It was awesome to be able to talk with him face to face (kind of). Still, I find it interesting after all this time one smile from him makes my heart melt. I don’t know what it is but I know where I stand and I know what roads not to go down again. Which leaves us to where we are now… just being friends.

As far as Mr. Seattle goes, we talked last night on skype for a little. But right off the bat I could tell he was a little a frustrated with just life in general. So the conversation wasn’t the best, but hopefully whatever he is going through it works itself out. It is a bummer we live so far apart, I think it is one of the biggest reasons things have just kind of crumbed. But I’ve been told if he wants to be with you he will move mountains to do so. I can’t worry about it now, besides I think it might not be the best time to start anything anyway.

These past couple months God has taught me a lot about what He wants for me in a relationship. I’ve learned not to settle for anything less and even though it would be nice to have a relationship to work out right now. I understand it probably isn’t His timing for it… I just have to wait, be patient and content until He shows me otherwise. I’m glad God has given me such a heart for His will and a passion for the friendships He has blessed me with. It is hard sometimes to understand the reasons why God lets things happen the way they do but in the end He will bless us for staying on His path.

“My steps have held to your paths; my feet have not slipped.” -Psalm 17:5

Happy Valentine’s Day

Will love find me this Valentine’s Day…? Hum, I wonder. Do I really want it to find me? That is a question I keep playing through my head this morning. I think I do but I don’t want it forced. I want things to happen in His timing and not my own. Tonight, I’m suppose to be meeting up a group of people downtown in Circle City after I get done babysitting. It should be a lot of fun and I don’t feel like I really need to worry about not having a date for it. I’m content with just being me and if something happens it will happen. So for being single on Valentine’s I’m feel pretty happy.

To give you a quick update about Thursday, Mr. Mansion was a no show… because he was still not feeling well. However he kept texting me all night and made it known that he felt really bad. Even though I was bummed I still had blast with Dan and Nicole! I kind of figured he wasn’t going to come anyways but interesting enough he did ask last night what I was up today. So this afternoon he is coming over to hang out… I don’t know what to expect but I’m just going to let it play out and see where it goes. Besides it would be nice to become better friends first.

Well I have to run… Mr. Mansion just called and said he is grabing me some lunch and will be here soon. I hope you have a wonderful Valentine’s Day, I will be praying for you.

Relationship Vibes

Relationship vibes… have you every felt them? Have you ever been confused by them? For years guys have been stating girls were the only ones who gave off confusing vibes but the more and more I interact with different guys I’ve realized this is not true by any means. Guys give off just as many confusing relationship vibes as girls do. I actually can’t believe guys can say that they are easy to understand. Because in reality I can not for the life of me figure out what you men want?!?! One minute you are calling me dear, holding my hand, saying I’m amazing… than the next minute you make up excuses, act like you never liked me and you think it is okay to pick up where you left me hanging. Just like the movie “He is just not that into you”…seriously with guys playing these games; how are woman suppose to actually find someone that would like to have a “real relationship”. I’m not trying to be disrespectful towards guys that read this but guys can be such jerks sometimes.

With Valentine’s Day around the corner, even though I’m not in a “relationship”, I can honestly say I’m happy about it. Of course I would love to have someone for Vday but for once I don’t have to worry about buying anyone a card, I don’t have to make googly eyes with anyone across a table and I don’t have to spend countless hours getting ready for the big date. Granted I’m not closing myself off from the world but I don’t have time to play games with guys either. If I’m interested in you, you will know plain and simple. If I feel you are not into me… I move on. There is no reason to whine and gravel over a guy that won’t give you the time of day. If you are experiencing such a guy in your life he is not worth your time, don’t mess with him. I promise you can do better! Be content being just you… it is much more rewarding to do so.

Sorry for that little spat… I really don’t know what that was about. But I thought I would give you an update what is happening with the random guys in my life right now…

I found out Mr. Mansion has been sick the past couple days and I felt really bad for him. So tonight I thought I would bring him a get well bag. Filled with soup, tea, a sandwich from Jimmy John’s, crackers and juice. However, before I brought it down to him I was getting weird vibes through text. It was like he wanted me to come but didn’t. Grr… confusing! Maybe I should stop caring so much but my intentions were good. So I ended up bringing over the get well stuff to his house, which in turn he ended up being very thankful for.  I wonder if it was because he was sick.. but I’m a little confused about the vibes he was giving me this pass weekend compared to the new ones I got from him tonight. They were really different and see this is what I’m talking about. What am I suppose to do with that? I guess we will see how Thursday goes if he ends up coming.

Now on the other hand Mr. Seattle finally got skype working on his new computer. This was unexpected but tonight we talked on skype for over an hour! What, where did that come from ?!?! See I think what catches me off guard the most is that it was just like the first time we talked on skype down in Florida. Sigh, I really like Mr. Seattle… but I don’t want to play games. I know he has been nothing but respectful and just trying to maintain being a friend in my life right now; however it just makes things complicated. Because I can’t see him as “just” a friend. It will be interesting to see if we continue to skype more and if anything comes from that. Deep down if I’m being honest with myself, I still want something to.

Well that is all I have for now… I better get some sleep but I will write soon and let you know how tomorrow goes.

Paint the Town Red

Photo: Myself, Will, Nicole & Nicki

This week has been absolutely crazy but I have been enjoying every minute of it. The job search has been awesome and has kept me on my toes, that is for sure. I have had five interviews since Tuesday for this new job that came up. I can’t tell you what it is yet but it could be really exciting! I am still trying to work out the details and should know which job I’m taking by Wednesday for sure. Besides being blessed with having job opportunities, I’ve been making new friends and possibly developing a new interest. I feel like everything is happening so fast, my life has been turned upside down in one month and now everything is coming together in a week. Who would have every thought this was possible?!?! But I know my God can do anything, so I’m willing to embrace every step of this path He has set me on. I’m excited to see where He leads me.

So about this new interest… I’m pretty sure this was the topping to my past week! It all started Friday night, when I went with Will, Nicole and Nicki (in the photo above) to this cocktail event at a mansion downtown. At first I didn’t know if I would be able to go but I am really happy I did. Because not only did they ask me to shoot photos for the event, but I got to meet a Colt’s player and some other really cool people! It turned out to be a really fun event and after being there for an hour or so it got really interesting. Because low and behold one of my old time buddies Dan from college comes walking in the door! What?!?! I couldn’t believe it… my jaw dropped! I was so surprised and happy to reconnect with him. Come to find out that he works for the guy who lived in the mansion we were at. Man, what a small world we live in! Standing there catching up with Dan about stuff, this guy walks up to us… (I will call him Mr. Mansion, since I met him in one). Now, what is weird about the whole situation is that I knew of Mr. Mansion in college but really have never met him. Pretty much after meeting him I was like butter the rest of the night, I mean I don’t know about him but there was a lot chemistry between us. With my curiosity… I knew I would have to talk to him somehow during the night. We end up talking a ton… which turned out to be amazing! I love the fact that Mr. Mansion is a Christian, he is funny, smart, witty, charming, comes from a big family and gosh darn good looking! As the night came to an end Mr. Mansion and I exchanged numbers.

The next day Nicole and I were planning to go out together downtown later on that night. In the mean time I spent most of the afternoon shooting photos of a band in Circle City and editing them. During that time Mr. Mansion and I kept texting back and forth seeing what each other were up to. Which made me excited, because he seemed to be interested in me as much as I was in him. Since Nicole and I were going to be downtown and the guys live down there… I ended up inviting Mr. Mansion and Dan out to join us. Well, it ended up turning into an awesome night! And oh ya, Mr. Mansion held my hand… haha. Sorry that is as intense as it got but I was really happy. He was so cute all night and I couldn’t seem to stop smiling. I’m not going to lie I was enjoying ever minute of it! All of us had so much hanging with each other we decided to do it again on Thursday night over dinner and going to watch a band in town afterward. It was kind of funny how things in life sometimes just work out. When your in the right place at the right time with the right people. Needless to say I was pretty happy with the way things turned out on Saturday night.

This morning however after I finished with church I got another text from Mr. Mansion asking what I was up to this afternoon. With both of us being spontaneous we decided to meet up for lunch. Which turned out to be a total lunch date! I really enjoyed his company and it was good to laugh again about silly things. Being around him just was another reminder that there are good Christian guys out there. I loved that we could talk about so many different things and it seems like we have a lot in common. It will be interesting to see what comes out of this but everything looks positive so far. As we left the restaurant, he walked me to my car and hugged me goodbye. Having him hold me in his arms was really nice and by the way, have a mentioned he also smells really good?!?! I really dig whatever cologne he is using.

Well we will see where this goes but Mr. Mansion seems like a great guy and I’m looking forward to getting to know him better. I just thought I would update everyone on my crazy exciting week! I have to run but I’m sure there will be more to follow really soon.