So the last you read I had a date with Mr. FB on good old St. Patty’s Day… WHOA hold up, has it really been that long since I’ve neglected to tell you what happened next!!! Where did the time go… ???? Well at last things have finally slowed down where I found some time I could write about it. (However, it was fun to see how many people actually read this! Considering I got a lot of questions/e-mails about what happened to me, thank you for your interest in my crazy world… you know who you are).

This past month has been insanely busy… from going out to visit my girls on VA Beach, keeping up with my new job, managing a dating life and trying to plan my big birthday coming up I just haven’t been able to keep up with it all!

VA Beach & Job
What an AMAZING time I had out there. It was so good to see the Brit and Holly. It had been far to LONG and a much needed trip after my first publication went out. I worked a crazy 19 hours straight right before I left for the trip and couldn’t wait for a little R&R. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE my new job so I don’t mind working that much but I was really happy for the break.

I miss these girls so much and it is beyond wonderful to have their ongoing support and friendship over the years. I appreciate all the fun memories we share and the the laughter that comes from it. To start off the weekend Brit picked me up from the airport and Holly was able to join up later that night. We went to EVERY seafood restaurant in sight and didn’t stop running around the entire weekend. So from Classes, Chocolate Factories, Shopping, Playing on the beach (Both rain & shine), Restaurants, Basketball Games, Surprise birthday parties, Church, Going to Waa Waa (turns out this is a gas station not a coffee shop…oh Holly, haha), we even managed to squeeze in going to a Law School Dance! What an a CRAZY fun 3 day weekend!!! I think though when things are planned on a whim like what happened that weekend things just couldn’t get any better!

The only downside to the whole weekend is that on the way home from VA Beach I had a layover in New York that was only suppose to be 2 hours, which turned into 5! Gate 25 how I loath thee!!! I was sad that I didn’t know this before hand because I definitely would have gone out and explored New York for a bit if I did. Instead I got stuck to a wall with my cell phone plugged in (due to my battery dying) and keeping my sights on an old guy with a guitar that was on the same flight because I was scared they were going to change the gate and I wouldn’t know.

However the layover wasn’t all bad. I got to talk to Mr. FB for most of the layover and we really a great time chatting the few hours away. I got to learn a lot more about his likes/dislikes and how much he LOVES the Cub’s baseball. At this point I really started to like Mr. FB… he kept telling me how much he missed me while I was gone and told me he talked about me to some of his friends/parents. Wait hold up… friends/parents… this is BIG!

Mr. Facebook
Since then Mr. FB and my relationship really started to bloom… you could say we almost have been inseparable. He got me flowers the very next day I got back from VA. Beach and is always staying in touch with me. Wanting to know how my day is… so on and so forth. Which is something I haven’t had a guy do in a long time, but I really like it. His consistency, sweet personality, communication skills and honesty have been huge for me! Besides that he goes to church with me, which is the most important of all! To me this is amazing that we can share this together. I’m really happy for I found someone who is treating me the way I’m suppose to be treated and not like a piece of meat to munch on every once in awhile.

I’ve really enjoyed all the time I’ve spent with Mr. FB and can really start seeing a future possibly. Of course I still have a lot of time before it comes to that but the thought has crossed my mind and I can see it happening. As far as right now we are dating just each other, we don’t have any titles on it yet but I’m not really worried about that. We will just see what happens over the next month or so, I’m just putting everything in the Lord’s hands.

Turning 24
This week I am turning 24! Crazy isn’t it?!?! I can’t believe it myself… time has really flown by. I’m having a big party this Friday downtown in Circle City and hope everyone will be able to make it. But no matter who shows up it should be a good time.

On my actually birthday (Saturday) Mr. FB asked if he could take me out to dinner! Yayayay I’m so excited… I can’t wait to see what he has planned up his sleeve. I loved being surprised! So I will be writing more soon to let you know how that goes.

So…I have many more stories about Mr. FB and I to tell soon but they will have to wait till next time. This is getting pretty long right now and I have to run. Hope you enjoyed the long over due update and again sorry for not being better. I’ll write again soon… but until then I will leave you with this amazing verse I hold dear to my heart.

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the LORD, and will bring you back from captivity…” -Jeremiah 29:11-14

Well… Mr. Facebook and I not only had our 2nd date at Mama Corolla’s this past Friday night but we also went on another date this afternoon to watch the movie Slumdog Millionaire at the theater! Both dates were awesome and went much…much better then the first one! Good thing I didn’t go with my first impression of him. Whoa… wait did I just go on three dates with Mr. Facebook in one week!?!?

Friday night: Mr. Facebook showed up on time and could not have been more of a gentlemen. He held open the car door and was very polite. Paying full attention to me he seemed genuinely interested in who I was and what I was all about. This made the evening conversation effortless and an enjoyment to have. We got the best seat in the whole restaurant right next to the windows. (the main window in the photo above is where we sat) The food was out of this world and I have to say he was absolutely right to say Mama Corolla’s is the best Italian food in Circle City!

After dinner we headed back to my apartment where we popped in the movie Blood Diamonds and had a glass of wine together. It was so nice just to hang out with someone with no expectations. When the movie ended as he was about to leave he gave me not one hug but two! Now I thought this was kind of cute… but kind of made me excited for the next time we might see each other.

Saturday afternoon: he wasted no time to ask if I would like to go to the theater to watch Slumdog Millionare Sunday afternoon. Of course after the good time I had on Friday night, I couldn’t help myself but say yes. Plus I really have been wanting to see this movie since it came out… it has had some rave reviews!

Sunday afternoon: Mr. Facebook and the movie were awesome…I would highly recommend the movie if you haven’t seen it! Again he was a total gentlemen and after the movie was over he asked to hang out for a little. So we just sat around my apartment and talked. We also got out the photo albums and I showed him a bit of my upbringing/family. Which I was pretty impressed he wanted to look at them… this would normally scare most guys.

After we finished my hands were cold, so being a stinker I put it on his face. Shocked at how cold they were he held my hand it between his. Which lead to him holding onto my hand for a while. So I think “officially” we have held hands. haha This all sounds so grade school but actually I really like it. I love that Mr. Facebook isn’t pushing anything and taking things slow. I’m perfectly happy with holding hands right now and I think it is going at a good steady pace.

There is no rush for anything but I am defiantly starting to like where things are headed. I haven’t seen any red flags come up yet so everything is in the clear so far. We will just have to wait and see but as he was leaving today he already asked if we could see each other this week. Man, so in one weeks time I’ve been on three dates with Mr. Facebook and considering my three date rule, I think I’ve made up my mind to let this play out a little longer.

Now if you haven’t heard of me talk about the three date rule that is usually when I make the decision to either continue to see the person or cut it off. It is a usually a good breaking point for me. Giving me enough time to see if I’m interested and if I find I’m not I don’t lead them on. However, right now I’m really interested to see where things could lead with Mr. Facebook. I haven’t been on more than three dates in a long time…so who knows what could happen next.

…is it forever?

I want to address an issue that not only effects the parties involved but everyone around them. I don’t think these individuals ever consider the people they are impacting with the dangerous decisions they are making. But I know a handful of people who decided it was best to break their marriage vows recently. Granted it hasn’t really hit home for me until now. Just this past Saturday night I found out news from one such couple, we will call Mr. & Mrs. Jingleheimer. I was totally caught off guard when Mr. Jingleheimer told me that his family has been separated for the past couple months. It breaks my heart because I had such great respect for him and his wife. And now they have three boys and two girls that they are dragging into this mess.

After I finished talking to Mr. Jingleheimer I had an overwhelming feeling came over me and I couldn’t help but cry. I’ve know the Jingleheimer family since 5th grade, so to me it was like hearing my parents were separating and on the brink of a divorce. They were so involved in my life growing up and hearing him talk about how they are separated… just crushed me. I think what hurts even more is that I know, they know better! Their marriage was so strong all these years… what made the bomb start ticking ?!?!

I’m pretty sure this is why I get nervous about getting into a relationship. Plus my past experiences with men have not been the greatest (I mean two out of my three boyfriends cheated on me so far). So what makes a good healthy relationship? How do you find someone and know that it will last… are there any guarantees?  Probably not, but I know whoever I start dating will have to fight for me just as much as I fight for him. I think the environments we expose ourselves to, play a big role in our relationships today. Society is always telling us we need to focus on numeral uno and if you don’t get what you want then move on. Putting the most value on yourself instead of your family. Which if this is true by any means this method of thinking makes dating impossible… and finding good solid guys that want to work at a relationship seem like a distant notion. It leaves me asking myself is there any hope at all?

Don’t get me wrong there are some really great couples out there, who have some really awesome marriages! But it is really hard to find those couples. And sadly far and few between. With all that being said how do you know that “special someone” is the one you are going to spend the rest of your life with? I know every marriage is no cup of tea but Isn’t your marriage worth fighting for? Isn’t that what you committed to, when you said your vows?

I guess what is so tough for me about this issue is watching some of my close friends and family member’s marriages crumble right before me. The ones I never dreamed of it happening to. Even though they might think they are the only ones being impacted by their decisions, they are wrong. They impact the ones they least suspect.

Last night after getting home from the gym I got a phone call from Mr. Pepperdine! It has been a while since we had talked but needless to say we were on the phone for about an hour catching up. It was awesome being able to talk with him again… but I was super jealous about the fact he was on vacation sitting under a palm tree on a beach in Hawaii when I was back in Circle City! I could even hear the waves crashing in the background… how crazy is that! I think Mr. Pepperdine for me will always be one of those guys who I will always have a thing for. Later on that night I got a text from Mr. Pepperdine that said…

“What are you doing next weekend? …want to be my date to my law school dinner?”

Would I ever !?!? I don’t know how in the world this would happen but I would die if it did. I e-mailed him back this morning so we will have to see what he responds with.

Relationship vibes… have you every felt them? Have you ever been confused by them? For years guys have been stating girls were the only ones who gave off confusing vibes but the more and more I interact with different guys I’ve realized this is not true by any means. Guys give off just as many confusing relationship vibes as girls do. I actually can’t believe guys can say that they are easy to understand. Because in reality I can not for the life of me figure out what you men want?!?! One minute you are calling me dear, holding my hand, saying I’m amazing… than the next minute you make up excuses, act like you never liked me and you think it is okay to pick up where you left me hanging. Just like the movie “He is just not that into you”…seriously with guys playing these games; how are woman suppose to actually find someone that would like to have a “real relationship”. I’m not trying to be disrespectful towards guys that read this but guys can be such jerks sometimes.

With Valentine’s Day around the corner, even though I’m not in a “relationship”, I can honestly say I’m happy about it. Of course I would love to have someone for Vday but for once I don’t have to worry about buying anyone a card, I don’t have to make googly eyes with anyone across a table and I don’t have to spend countless hours getting ready for the big date. Granted I’m not closing myself off from the world but I don’t have time to play games with guys either. If I’m interested in you, you will know plain and simple. If I feel you are not into me… I move on. There is no reason to whine and gravel over a guy that won’t give you the time of day. If you are experiencing such a guy in your life he is not worth your time, don’t mess with him. I promise you can do better! Be content being just you… it is much more rewarding to do so.

Sorry for that little spat… I really don’t know what that was about. But I thought I would give you an update what is happening with the random guys in my life right now…

I found out Mr. Mansion has been sick the past couple days and I felt really bad for him. So tonight I thought I would bring him a get well bag. Filled with soup, tea, a sandwich from Jimmy John’s, crackers and juice. However, before I brought it down to him I was getting weird vibes through text. It was like he wanted me to come but didn’t. Grr… confusing! Maybe I should stop caring so much but my intentions were good. So I ended up bringing over the get well stuff to his house, which in turn he ended up being very thankful for.  I wonder if it was because he was sick.. but I’m a little confused about the vibes he was giving me this pass weekend compared to the new ones I got from him tonight. They were really different and see this is what I’m talking about. What am I suppose to do with that? I guess we will see how Thursday goes if he ends up coming.

Now on the other hand Mr. Seattle finally got skype working on his new computer. This was unexpected but tonight we talked on skype for over an hour! What, where did that come from ?!?! See I think what catches me off guard the most is that it was just like the first time we talked on skype down in Florida. Sigh, I really like Mr. Seattle… but I don’t want to play games. I know he has been nothing but respectful and just trying to maintain being a friend in my life right now; however it just makes things complicated. Because I can’t see him as “just” a friend. It will be interesting to see if we continue to skype more and if anything comes from that. Deep down if I’m being honest with myself, I still want something to.

Well that is all I have for now… I better get some sleep but I will write soon and let you know how tomorrow goes.

Here is the well needed update of what has been going on the past couple days…

The Job Search:
There is an angel sitting on my shoulder… whisking away my fear of the unknown. I have never felt so comforted about things and my faith is continuing to stand strong. With everything going on, I should feel like my world is spinning out of control. The job search is still going… I’ve been on the hunt for a while but opportunities are starting to present themselves and I know it will just be a matter of time before things work out. There is also the possibility of starting a freelance company and maybe joining forces with another designer?!?! Which be really exciting… could this be where God is leading me? Well, I will keep you informed what happens once I hear more.

New MacBook Pro:
I feel bad because I haven’t had the time to write lately. Being unemployed has kept me busy looking for a new job. My living room has become my new office. I’ve been struggling to keep up with everything because my mac hasn’t been running really well and it takes forever to do anything on it. But today, God answered one of my prayers… lately I have been having to turn down freelance opportunities because of my computer was over 6 years old and extremely slow. However, it just goes to show God knows your needs and always provides. My grandparents called me and told me they wanted to buy me a new computer! Now, hold the phone… who does that?!?! I couldn’t believe they wanted to do that for me, lets just say when grandma told me I had tears of joy streaming down my face. It is just what I needed, when I needed it. I just blow away right now of God’s amazing timing of things. I’m truly blessed by everything they have done for me and for God’s amazing provisions.

Dating:
So this past Friday, a married couple I’m friends with tried hooking me up with one of there friends. They ended having me over to there house for dinner and a movie for more or less a double date. Mr. Double Dater was nice and the evening was really fun. We had an amazing meal and then sat around playing apples to apples… after which we all watched a movie together. Great night but can I be honest? It all felt more like we were all great friends hanging out and there wasn’t really any sparks flying at all. So even though it was a great night and fun, I don’t think it will be going anywhere.

Mr. Seattle started texting me again… interesting. Just when I said the book was probably closed, it opens once again. His texts are still far and few between but I was excited to hear from him. I know on my end, I still feel really attracted to him… so we will see. I’m more or less just hoping.

Besides that Mr. Pepperdine an old college crush has been trying to be more involved in my life. He keeps sending me random text, just seeing how I’ve been doing. But I don’t know what he really wants so I haven’t paid much attention to them and that ship has mostly sailed now. After what he pulled back in August I pretty sure it would take a lot for me to feel comfortable putting my heart out again for him. I’m just not ready to go down that road anytime soon.

Lastly, may I shed some light a big issue? Have you ever been taken advantage of or been walked all over by someone you liked? Mr. BRipple is such a guy and is one of those who just doesn’t get it. Over this past summer we kind of liked each other and he seemed like a cool guy to hang out with but ended up being a real jerk. Well a couple days ago he texted me out of the blue and he had the nerve to ask if I wanted to come over and snuggle. Okay for one he hasn’t talked with me in months and second where does he get the gull to think that would be okay to do? Who does he think I am?!?! Needless to say, I wrote him back and told him very nicely that the only reason he should contact me is to be a friend and nothing more right now. I don’t need a meaningless relationship (who only calls once in a while) and I knew that was exactly what he was looking for. The reason I’m mentioning this is because I wanted to remind you guys that we have feelings and your really messing with them when you pull stuff like this. Seriously, if you don’t want to be considered a jerk be mindful in trying to make healthy relationships. Otherwise in the end you will just end up alone, no girl likes a guy who fools around. And ladies you need to stick up for yourself with guys like that. Because if you don’t they will always treat you without respect and continue this little game they are playing. Sticking up for myself has helped me avoid a lot of bad situations. Excuse me for venting but I felt like it needed to be said.

New Friends:
Since I’ve had more time off, I’ve been able to hang out with friends and be able to make some new ones at networking events. It has been really interesting to see those new friendships take off. The kind of friends you feel like you have known forever. Last Friday after the blind double date I met up with some of these new found friends at Moon Dogs. It was awesome to be able to hang out and just have fun being goof-balls with each other. I’m really thankful that God has stuck some amazing people in my life. I can’t believe how much networking changes how many people you know in a matter of days. Seriously I feel like in the past two weeks I’ve met over 50 new people… it is crazy!!!

Well I think it is time for bed, however I can’t tell you how much I have appreciated all your encouraging words and prayers. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, it means the world to me.

Click… click…click… type… send. The past 10 days this is all I feel like I’ve been doing. The job search has been absolutely crazy! I’ve had multiple leads but the exciting thing is that I’m getting interviews. Since being laid off I’ve had three which in this economy is nothing to overlook. However with the clock ticking away I feel like I get more nervous with each day that passes. I know it is just a matter of time before things will pan out, but feeling a little lost on where to go next has left an uneasy feeling in my stomach. I’m not sure if any of those interviews will lead into a future career but I’m know God will give me a peace about the right job when it comes. All I can do is trust Him and live blindly.

Lately on the relationship home front, because of the job situation I haven’t felt like I have had to much time to pursue anyone. However it seems the moment I stop looking, that is when guys come out of the woodworks. Even past relationships have started to resurface again which in most cases are annoying. They just remind me of being hurt and turn into more of a poking game then something meaningful. Everything else so far has been pretty casual up until this point and there has been a date here or there. Some of my friends are trying to set me up, but there hasn’t been anyone I’m head over heels for. Thus the reason I haven’t written about them. I have been pretty content being single so I’m not really sure if I want to stir the pot up. Plus this whole job situation and the possibility of moving has made me hesitate starting anything with anyone.

Things between Mr. Seattle and I have calmed down a lot and I haven’t heard from him as much anymore. It really stinks that I finally found someone I was really interested in and excited about getting to know. But now has seems faded because of the distance. I guess for now Mr. Seattle is more a less a closed book, until he decides to open it again. I don’t tend to pursue guys, when it starts to become one sided.