Waking up this morning, I was hoping yesterday’s events were just a dream. Leaving life just as mundane as it was the day before. Pinching myself it only made me realize it was reality. Yesterday, January 12th 2009 at 2:30 in the afternoon gave a new meaning to,”Somebody’s got a case of the Mondays!”. I was at work, sitting at my desk when my phone rang. As soon as I picked it up, I got that gut feeling. I guess that is why I didn’t bother to bring a notebook and pen, I knew I wouldn’t need to take notes at this meeting. Walking downstairs I was hopeful that there were other reasons I was being called, but then when I was asked to close the door and take a seat. It all made sense, today was the day I was going to be laid off.
After having three layoffs and changing four bosses in 2008 alone, it was only a matter of when the next big change would be. I had been expecting the fourth layoff for the past two months, so I wasn’t caught off guard about it when I was told I would be apart of it. More or less it came as shock, because no one loves hearing that they are getting laid off from their job. Of course there were a few tears and questions that were endlessly filling my head as I was walked up to get some of my personal items.
Feeling a little out of place coming home at 3:30 in the afternoon, all I wanted to do was lay in bed and feel sorry for myself. After a good five minutes… I wiped the mascara off my face, picked up my computer and went to work. I realized these past couple months God was not only preparing me for this moment; He was giving me the strength I would need to get through it. I have never felt more alive and my trust has never been deeper in Him. I wanted to learn to live blind this year and now more the ever God is letting me have the chance to do that. I have no idea what the future will hold but the possibilities are endless. This is the beginning to a whole new chapter.
“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” – Psalm 23:4
“My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life.”- Psalm 119:50
Circle City Girl
God strips away all our securities until the only thing we have left to depend on is him… i’m citing paragraph 3 in my blog… praying for you and knowing that God’s perfect will trumps our futile plans ANY day
xoxo
outer banks girl
Miss,
Please pardon me again for commenting twice in as many weeks. Once again God has impressed upon me to pray for you and to share nothing more with you than a few words which have sustained me in times of uncertainty. Rest and be assured that this circumstance is no over-sight by God. The Lord has a plan for your life. “Remember, others may see a shepherd boy, but God see’s a king”.
I leave you with a poem by Thomas Moore. As I stated in my previous comment, poetry stirs my heart as no other literary form.
I’d mourn the hopes that leave me,
If thy smiles had left me too;
I’d weep when friends deceive me,
If thou wert, like them, untrue.
But while I’ve thee before me,
With heart so warm and eyes so bright,
No clouds can linger o’er me,
That smile turns them all to light
Thus, when the lamp that lighted
The traveller at first goes out,
He feels awhile benighted,
And looks round in fear and doubt.
But soon, the prospect clearing,
By cloudless starlight on he treads,
And thinks no lamp so cheering
As the light which Heaven sheds.
Continue in Faith
Dean
Hey Chris, I am so proud of you and how you have choosen to view this situation!! I wish in my younger days I would have had the knowledge and spiritual maturity that you are demonstrating now walking through this loss. When we walk through the fires of life remember shadrack, meshack and abendego and how they danced inside the firey furnance with our Lord and Savior. You will walk in this fire with the Savior and come out smelling like a sweet fragrance in the end!! My goal this year is to seek after a thankful heart in ALL circumstances, you have inspired me to continue on in this path and reminded me that being thankful holds so much more grace and power than wollowing in our own muck!! Love you Aunt Linda
I really love your outlook on life. I am so inspired by you! I try as best as I can to also view difficult experiences as positives – they are opportunities for growth, learning, and better and new experiences. And G-D doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle; everything that comes our way is to help us grow, learn and develop.
I am really sorry about your job. Even if it ultimately is a good thing, it’s still not easy to be laid off. Thinking about you.