This past Friday Mr. Facebook and I decided last minute to go to the Dave Matthews Band concert. I was super excited when he called me after work and told me be at his house around 6pm. Friday night was gorgous and what a better way to spend it then go to a concert outside? Walking up to the gate I couldn’t believe all the baby faces I was seeing. I feel like every year the crowd gets younger and younger. Maybe that is to the fact I have to face getting older? Was I really one of those little punks running around like that when I was their age? It kind of scares me to think at the moment, ahh.
Besides the forgetting a blanket, we were able to find an awesome spot on the lawn (shown in the photo above). Which unless you get there early is pretty hard to do. So I think Mr. Facebook was really pleased. As the night went on a few of Mr. Facebook’s friends met up with us along with Mr. Facebook’s sister. (By the way his sister is so sweet, I really enjoy hanging out with her!) I think it was probably one of the best times I’ve had at a concert. Great music, being around friends and one beautiful night, we couldn’t have asked for it to get any better! So Mr. Facebook gets major props for deciding to get tickets.
I also love the fact when I’m hanging out with Mr. Facebook and his friend, I feel like I fit in. In past relationships it hasn’t always been like that. I felt like I was trying to be someone else around them, trying to keep up with their standard or something like that. But with Mr. Facebook’s friends I feel like I can let go and be myself. That is how it should be isn’t it, right? Looking back even as early as three years ago, I realize I wasted so much time trying to impress people with who I thought they wanted me to be, instead of just being myself. I think this behavior was a side effect of my first boyfriend. He was always telling me to modify the way I talked, looked, dressed, etc… I guess at the time I didn’t know any better. I just thought that is how realtionships were. Boy was I ever wrong and the sad part is that I’m just figuring this all out. I mean my next two boyfriends after that weren’t any better. I think Mr. Facebook is the first guy who has never once wanted to change anything about me.
Honestly, it has been so refreshing and pretty life changing. I mean that is one of the biggest reasons I was so nervous about getting into another relationship. I was scared of having to put on another relationship facade. Maybe, you have been through this? I was so brainwashed for such a long time into thinking it was normal to change for others, I never bothered to stop and look at what I really wanted out of the relationship. I think that is what is so different about Mr. Facebook and I really admire him for it. It takes a lot of self control to sit there and say I don’t want to change one thing about you, I like you just the way you are.
I may itch my throat and ear at the same time, not think in the most logical manner and have a rediculous laugh that everyone makes fun of me for; But that is what makes me… well me! Don’t let anyone ever change you, I had to find this out the hard way. However, if I had to go through this all over again just to be in the same place I am now, I would do it in a heart beat. There something about the struggle that makes us appreciate the good times when they happen.
“In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials.” -1 Peter 1:6